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Bonjour! BIenvenue a mon blog. Here I will try to write a few things about ce qui se passe dans la vie de Daryl!
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Mar. 30th, 2008 @ 12:02 am Everything
Current Music: Fefe Dobson - Everything
Sometimes I give in to sadness
Sometimes I don't
At times I'm part of the madness
Sometimes I won't
Give in to you

You see in a way
I have been drifting down a river to nowhere
And you've given me nothing

But if you're ready to be my
Everything
If you're ready to see it through
This time
And if you're ready for love then
This I will bring
But I'm not gonna wait for you forever this time

At times I feel myself smiling
At times I'm not

What's with the guilt that you styling baby
Talk don't look good on you
You see in a way
I have been looking for a reason to go there
And you're leading me nowhere

But if you're ready to be my
Everything
If you're ready to see it through
This time
And if you're ready for love then
This I will bring
But I'm not gonna wait for you forever
This time

Are you waiting for a special occasion
To give me your heart
Cause I need a little confirmation
To make a real start
Don't wait till it's too late
Are you ready to show me?
Are you ready to love me?
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patrick
Aug. 4th, 2007 @ 05:53 pm An update to the "super queer/flaming homo" results that I got from previous quizzes






What kind of queer are you?




WOW! What a suprise! You're "Mr. Butch Masculine Queer." You'd pretty much be straight if you didn't like boys. Sometimes you try to hard to look/act/be "masculine" And sometimes it's natural. You are every fairy bottom's dream man
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HM! It seems i've changed massively in the past few months haha... wonder why..
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patrick
Aug. 4th, 2007 @ 10:49 am pieces...
Current Mood: ditzyditzy
Current Music: sum 41 - Pieces
I tried to be perfect
But nothing was worth it
I don’t believe it makes me real
I thought it’d be easy
But no one believes me
I meant all the things I said

If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I’m trying to let you know
That I’m better off on my own

This place is so empty
My thoughts are so tempting
I don’t know how it got so bad
Sometimes it’s so crazy
That nothing can save me
But it’s the only thing that I have

If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I’m trying to let you know
That I’m better off on my own

On my own

I tried to be perfect
It just wasn’t worth it
Nothing could ever be so wrong
It’s hard to believe me
It never gets easy
I guess I knew that all along

If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I’m trying to let you know
That I’m better off on my own

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i'm really trying here... you meant a lot to me, more than the last and I dont know why it is that I have to get used to this.

i'm a lot stronger than i was a little more than a year ago... but the fact of the matter is, i was dealing with similar things a year ago... This time though it's different; there's no blame no bitterness...nothing..... why am i so bad at this?
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patrick
Jun. 13th, 2007 @ 10:06 am it's raining!
Current Mood: sicksick
You have my heart
And we'll never be worlds apart
May be in magazines
But you'll still be my star
Baby cause in the dark
You can't see shiny cars
And that's when you need me there
With you I'll always share
Because

When the sun shines, we'll shine together
Told you I'll be here forever
Said I'll always be a friend
Took an oath I'ma stick it out till the end
Now that it's raining more than ever
Know that we'll still have each other
You can stand under my umbrella
You can stand under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh eh eh eh)

These fancy things, will never come in between
You're part of my entity, here for Infinity
When the war has took its part
When the world has dealt its cards
If the hand is hard, together we'll mend your heart

You can run into my arms
It's okay don't be alarmed
Come into me
There's no distance in between our love
So go on and let the rain pour
I'll be all you need and more
Because

When the sun shines, we'll shine together
Told you I'll be here forever
Said I'll always be a friend
Took an oath I'ma stick it out till the end
Now that it's raining more than ever
Know that we'll still have each other
You can stand under my umbrella
You can stand under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh eh eh eh)

It's raining
Ooh baby it's raining
Baby come into me
Come into me
It's raining
Oh baby it's raining

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I've been going through a lot of things lately. This song just reminds me that despite of things, despite of distance, despite of time away, that there are people that you can count on in the end. Even though it's geen years/months since we've last seen I see that we are still good friends and that I've been a fool to let you guys slip by. I appreciate the company of my friennndss.. we can share each other's umbrellas. haha
Besides it's an awesome-sounding song lol. ella ella eh eh eh eh eh eh.....!
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patrick
Feb. 21st, 2007 @ 12:41 am One
Current Mood: happyhappy
Current Music: Avril Lavigne - Keep Holding On
A few months ago when I was going through some of the toughest times I didn't see a way out.

But now, now that I was ready for being alone, when I felt strong enough to stand up and rise above it all... When I was all set for some serious "knitting" for the next year or so..


Who would've known that someone so wonderful would've walked into my life. The best things come to those who wait.

I guess gr12 religion class was true about the "paradox of love" lol...Love doesn't come to those who look for it, for they will never find it by only trying to fulfill their own selfish needs.

So when I stopped looking, when I was daryl-the-single-but-knitting .... when my walls were built and doors were shut, someone managed to sneak in.

We've all had our fun but now what I have is serious and it's real.

I was thinking about how I wished I had met someone like him about four years ago when things were going really badly anyways... and again about eight months ago.... I've gone through it all, the long term relationships, the cheating and being cheated on, the hookups, the "casual" dating, and they were without a doubt very challenging experiences. Being told that he was "never really in love" for the past four and a half years was hurtful... However I realize now that as a result of those trials and tribulations I have become a better person because of it. Not just more resilient, but wiser and stronger.

I had to go through tough times in order to truly appreciate what it is I have now with me. I've learned my mistakes and since i've owned up to them I know they are not mistakes I will repeat again. I now know a sinking ship when I see it, but right now I'm flying...
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patrick
Jan. 2nd, 2007 @ 04:13 am Where the roads begin and end
Current Mood: contemplativecontemplative
I know I don't post that regularly but I feel it's an opportune time for me to post. This year has certainly been a tumultous time for me, with many closed relationships, new friendships, and opened dors.
Certainly a very jarring theme of 2006 has been that of closure. ) The closure of relationships, beginning of new friendships, and discovery of new opportunities and talents have been the main motifs of my year 2006. I have been hurt and hurt badly. I left two things that were comforting and was pushed into a world of uncertainty. However with pain and solitude came self-reflection and eventually came peace. With a world of different things came friends both new and refound and a renewed set of experiences to push me forward. I'm older, wiser, and stronger....

I come into 2007 with an inner strength gained from self-determination and solitude, and a renewed sense of self-worth. For goodness sakes I'm a 22 year-old, biochem specialist in the prime of my freaking life! I'm raising not one, not two, but three wonderful neices/nephew, I've become a biker, I am a reblossoming social butterfly, and I will graduate with my Honours Bachelor of Science as a Biochemistry Specialist with research experience under my belt and no debt to tie me down!

My emotional baggage is checked neatly into the past. I've already started on road - nay, the BIKE PATH - to whatever awaits, baby! Who wants to join?

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patrick
Oct. 26th, 2006 @ 11:11 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: ditzyditzy

The Super Queer

Stand up and be heard! You're 79% gay!

Does it get gayer than you? (Yes, "gayer" is now a word) There's no hiding this one. Why did you even take this test?












My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender:
free online datingfree online dating
You scored higher than 93% on homopoints




Link: The Am I Gay? Test written by alone2gether on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the The Dating Persona Test
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patrick
Apr. 8th, 2006 @ 10:13 pm Nintendo Revolution Screenshot!

red3
Originally uploaded by el moco.
OMG! Here's a screenshot of an upcoming nintendo revolution game, called "red steel".

Anyways the new counsole codenamed "Revolution" will feature a, uh, revolutionary new controller that can point to objects at the screen! Imagine being able to point a shooting-object with such ease (as seen in the picture featured here). Imagine being able to swing a sword around to play awesome zelda-ish games. Imagine light sabers, magic wands that can play harry-potter-ish games, imagine the possibilities....
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patrick
Mar. 11th, 2006 @ 12:15 am A call for help regarding my search for summer housing
Current Mood: pensivepensive
As you may recall, I have a summer job downtown at a lab full time and as such I want to have a place close to campus.

Walking distance. Safe. Clean. Affordable. Is that too much to ask? Internet is a necessity, AC/on-site laundry are definite +'s. Am I crazy for wanting that?

I've had places that are neither safe nor close enough (such as with the terrible and infamous Dundas and sherbourne), to places that are safe, clean, affordable but not terribly close nor suitable for only a summer term such as with the house near the Casa Loma Neighbourhood

I'm here at a cross roads and decisions have to be made quickly. I've lost too many housing places b/c other people managed to swipe the rug from under my feet...

I want a place downtown for:
(1) be close to campus (and by correlation, my job) and not have to worry about the hassle of commuting the goddamn hour and a half I normally have to put with for one-way travel.
(2) have a place where my friends could crash after a night of clubbing/going out
(3) be downtown b/c it's cool and I can walk to many destinations!

There are two very good prospective places: Residence or off-campus.

Residence
the common room
This is Woodsworth College, a newly-built (finished in 2004) residence that is open for the summer. The situation is this: it's apartment-style residence. This means that four-five bedrooms share one common room, kitchen
Pros: Very close to campus, a ~5 minute walk to the lab job building(as they are opposite ends of campus) Price-wise, the residences come out on top because I would have to spend an absolute maximum of either 2400$ or 2525$ for the entire term from mid may to late august. That includes AC,Internet,all utilities.
Cons: Now I have places that are close (such as residence) but have somewhat strict guest policies. Their guest policies state no more than two overnight guests at a time, and the same person can't sleep overnight for more than three nights in a row.
Do I not need/deserve more autonomy and freedom considering I am 21 years old and it's only for the summer?


off-campus, character house in Little Italy
(sorry no pic) (see google map.)
This is a character place in little italy. That is, at Manning and College - a ~15-20 minute walk away. I'd have control of the top floor of the Victorian house. That would mean I have my own (large!) bedroom and kitchen and bathroom. I also share the den with another cool guy (a subletter) for the place.
Pros: Complete and utter autonomy. I can have two guests - hell, ten guests - over at a time and you guys can all crash in the bedroom, in the kitchen, in the bathroom....
All utils incl. (heat/hydro/water and wireless internet can be "scooped up" from neighbouring buildings..)
The guy who's subletting it to me is totally cool and is willing to allow me to start at half past the month of May and as such only pay half a month's rent for then...
Cons: and it's somewhat pricey at $800/mo. Somewhat far. A 20 minute walk in the morning during the hot summer doesn't truly appeal to me. It's not exactly "downtown core" but only 7 min streetcar away from College and Unversity streets.
But it's the distance and the ~price that gets me.

Little Italy place, part 2
There's also this place. A three-bedroom place that's to bed shared. However i'd get my own big bedroom. (see google maps for place).
Pros: Big bedroom. Laundry included in the suite (no paying required!!!!!!!!!!!!!) Utilities included (except for internet). Only $550/mo! Potential for complete control with respect to who/when/howmany sleep over.
Cons: Shared kitchen and one bathroom for the three. I'd only have "complete" control of the bedroom. No AC possible. Slightly far (also at College and Euclid, so the same distance as the place mentioned above). Internet deal would have to be worked out with roomates but it shouldn't be that big of a deal.

I really need your help. I've tried doing some soul-searching but I can't find the answer within myself.

What's more important? all-in-one inclusive package that's about $300 dollars less for the entire term - incld AC/utils/internet - but with restrictions on privacy, and guest-sleeping-over-age? Or having the complete ability to have many friends over, and have autonomy over what/where/when/who I do - but at a slightly higher price, internet needs to be snarfed fr/neighbours, and slightly far away?

I am at a crossroads and I need some info quickly. please help. My indecisiveness kills me....

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homer brain
Mar. 4th, 2006 @ 04:32 pm Searching for summer housing, part 2a - Davenport and Dupon

casaloma_stitch
Originally uploaded by deej-d.


This is in sharp contrast to a previous area that I found at Dundas and Sherbourne.



This new potential place is found at Davenport and Dupont - roughly a block or so north of bloor, found within the Annex.

Tracy (the person with whom I may room) like a very fun professional who is at the older end of the age spectrum. I sat down and took a detailed look at her duplex victorian house and I was quite enthralled by it.

Unfortunately her needs may not match mine - she needs someone to stay from april 1st until indefinitely, and it's not as close to downtown as I would've liked... While we may not board together I truly appreciated the time she spent talking to me about life and our own aspirations for life.

We seem like we could totally get along, too bad it may not be. Well, for now anyways.
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patrick